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(Saturday, July 21, 2007-)
+7/21/2007 11:14:00 PM]*
So Sick - Ne-Yo
Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah
Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be
That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio
Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?
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(Monday, July 16, 2007-)
+7/16/2007 09:21:00 PM]*
To that someone,
Although everything ended ages ago, I'd be lying if i said that u've completely meant nothing to me. No, i do not feel for you, but somehow, whenever i read or hear or come into contact with anything regarding you, thoughts and memories start to fill my mind. Yes, i've gotten over you and yes, that feeling that i once felt is no longer there, but somehow, i dun feel good, or even right when i come into contact with anything regarding you. Moving on in life, i've told myself that everything's changed, nothing in the past is what used to be. You've changed and i have too. You enjoy your life now and i'm happy inside mine. You've got your own life, you run your own life and i've mine, i run mine. Our lives no longer inter-twine like they used to.
I really dunno why is it that i'm feeling this way, is it because i have yet to let you go, or is it that i have yet to let myself go.
Our past has changed both of us, you've changed me, i've changed you. I look back on the past 3, 4 years spent with you and indeed, we did have our happy moments and we did have our sad moments too. However, this past whole year has just been spent by me trying to control back your life again and you trying to get back your freedom.
I really do not know whether I can start to trust you again after all that has happened.
Maybe you lied to not hurt me, maybe you lied because you didn’t want me to find out the truth, maybe you lied for my benefit, and maybe you lied to hurt me. It all doesn’t matter now.
I guess our aims have really changed over the past year, you hurt me trying to regain your freedom, and I hurt you trying to control your life. You hurt me again for trying to control your life and you hurt me in return for trying to do so. This cycle goes on and on till the point that we cannot take it anymore and we just scream and shout at each other, hurting each other more. We don’t aim to treat each other well or to make them happier, we aim to make their lives worst.
You were correct, i didn't treat you well, you didn't treat me well. And now, we try so hard to treat our other half better, not wanting to let history repeat itself.
Maybe, my initial decision was correct, we should really just stay away from each other till i return, maybe only then, everything will be back to normal again, maybe only then, everything will fall back into place.
I'm sorry.
Thank You for the past 3 odd years
Thank You for loving me during those times
Thank You for all the happiness you've brought me
Thank You for the numerous memories that fills the island
Thank You for all the outings, all the going outs, all the phone calls, all the messages
Thank You for teaching me so much there is to life
Thank You for true love, the way u told me it felt, the way you told me it was
Thank You for everything that you've done for me during this time
I'm sorry.
For the last time,
Cosmo Astro
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(Friday, July 13, 2007-)
+7/13/2007 10:58:00 PM]*
1 more hour's time and i would have 50 days left to disney...
Still remember the day i and darling started counting down the days till we leave, it was roughly 100 over days, and i told her, my aim would be the 100th day, then the 80th day, then the 50th day and lastly the 28th and then the 14th day...
And now, i'm looking at the 50th day till disney... Time passes so quickly, and these few weeks, its going to pass even more quickly... Esp with me being kept super busy with projs and after that exam...
I seriously need to see/meet/hang out with some peeps before i leave, i'm so going to miss them like crazy... And i seriously hope that nothing will change even though i'll be at the other side of the world for 5 mths...
And yes, i need the beach soon, SUPER NEED THE BEACH... The beach is my new hang out place... So yeah, i'm pulling everyone to the beach... HAHA... BEACH!!! SENTOSA!!!
And i should start preparing what to bring over, cannot last minute pack for 5 mths... I'm so afraid of forgetting to bring sth... Esp after dreaming that i forgot to bring my cam charger... NONONO!!!
Will miss alot of ppl badly in Disney, but hopefully, i'll enjoy myself... Can't wait for life there... Seriously...
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(Wednesday, July 11, 2007-)
+7/11/2007 10:35:00 PM]*
Yes, and yet again, i'm in an emo state...
Nothing much needs to be said...
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(Tuesday, July 10, 2007-)
+7/10/2007 11:05:00 PM]*
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(Thursday, July 05, 2007-)
+7/05/2007 11:37:00 PM]*
i promise to treat u well
to take good care of u
to be there when u need me
and to share all ur problems with u
i promise to keep u safe
far away from harm
to make u happy
and to share all ur happiness with
i promise to u
that i'll do everything
everything to make u're life better
everything to see u smile
and i'm doing all these
because i really do love u
but i really dunno how am i to make u believe
and so i wrote this song for u
I hope to be able to do everything
Everything I’ve mentioned here
But it would only be possible
If u would call me dear
This is no. 2 for u...
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