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(Tuesday, March 27, 2007-)
+3/27/2007 11:34:00 PM]*
I realised sth, my entry title is always something dumb and super irrelevant... Cause i simply dunno what dumb title to put... Like a title is the main point of a story or some essay or simply a junk of words, but there's no main point in most of my post, its just simply about my life, whines from me and rantings from me, so, the title that i always put, "my life"... HAHa...
Saw this on Jess' blog like 2 mins ago, and it reads:
"To Love or To Be Loved,
Which Will U Choose???"
I know i've asked this question before, but seriously, this is the biggest question that has always bugged my life... Which will i choose??? I've been at both ends of the spectrum before, i've loved and i've been loved before and the fact is that the feeling is so different... Loving someone would tire u out the same way giving tires one out... However, being loved would tire the other party out and soon, u'll start to realise that the other party is feeling so detached from everything...
I guess the best solution to this problem is having a balance between both, to love someone and to be loved by the other party... This way, its the most 幸福 de...
Again quoting from Jess' blog:
"It Takes 2 Hands To Clap"
If someone in the relationship keeps on giving, and someone in the relationship keeps on receiving, this relationship is bound to one day tire the one who keeps giving, and he/she will just walk away from the relationship...
Simply speaking, both parties must balance giving and receiving to make a relationship work...
A "nightmare" woke me up this morning, somehow, i was dreaming of someone i shouldn't have dreamt about, i was dreaming of something that i shouldn't have dreamt about, but somehow, the images of the dream is still vividly in my mind... I realised that somehow, its inevitable that i keep thinking about such stuff when i'm left alone, and i have to just simply open my eyes and tell myself that i can't let that happen...
There's just 2 questions that is bugging me right now:
1) What is true love?
2) What is relationship?
Alot of things on TV started to hit me today... One show said that if u really love someone, everything u give to that person, u won't want it or anything else back... Another said that loving someone is not wanting that person to be by your side but wanting that person to be happy no matter what...
Again, what is relationship??? One tv show said that in the end, the girl/guy u marry may not be the one that u love the most... Another said that there is other factors in maintaining a relationship other than true love... Yet another said that a relationship is simply just 2 ppl making use of each other to get what they want...
Seriously, after recent events, these 2 questions have got me thinking...
I've been spending the past week trying to get her outta my mind, spending the past week trying to move on from all the unhappiness, and yes, i dun feel as emo and as hurt as before...
I still do think about her sometimes, i still do look back at our happy moments sometimes, but that's only human, and yes, i guess i have some explaining to do... That's just me, i can't live without knowing why somethings happen and i won't let ppl go without knowing why i do some things...
I've moved on, seriously, but again, i guess i really need this yr to just rest and do the things i like and want... But again, if u are reading this, and i know u know who u are, i dun wanna lose a friend in u...
On to the next agenda... My timetable got changed, or rather, added... I now have a morning lecture from 9-11 on Mondays...
And this totally ruin my mood for school and my Mondays, imagine, no more late wake ups, no more take ur own sweet time to school, and no more short day at school... I now have to go down early morning just to attend a 2 HR LECTURE!!!
So i have long mondays and tuesdays, and short wednesdays, thursdays and fridays... Great... Its like the other way around from my last sem timetable where i have short mondays, tuesdays and wednesdays, and long thursdays and fridays...
Now, its time to plan (replan) my ponning schedule... Great...
So today went to Comfort Driving Centre with TM and GX at ubi... I think i'll start learning my driving when i'm back from the states... Then went MS to watch Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles... The show was quite alrite, other than the short time span and no evil character part of the show, which in the end, equals a very lousy show... Luckily i spend 7bucks only on the movie tics or else i can just die there...
Again, when i'm out with my frenz, i dun feel anything, when i'm busy with other stuffs, i dun feel anything, but when i'm alone, everything just start rushing back...
My heart is saying yes to hold on, but my mind is telling me to let go to protect myself... It's time to listen to my mind now, after listening to my heart for so long...
God pls help me...
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