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(Thursday, March 22, 2007-)
+3/22/2007 12:56:00 PM]*
I feel like i've been doing drugs for the longest time possible, and suddenly, i have and MUST quit...
This whole thing feels like and addiction, and this feeling now is like trying to quit my addiction...
Prolly slitting my wrist would make me feel so much more better, and admitted, i think about doing so every night...
Its not the first time anymore, i've been there, done that, i've seen the blood gush out from the tiny line that the pen knife made, i've felt the adrinaline rush once the blade touches the skin... However, i know that this is only a temporary measure to stop my addiction, and it would come back again...
I told shir that day over the phone, I'm so gonna go back to school happy, i'm not going to walk back to school the same way i did last yr, and yes, i'm so going to make my aim...
Many ppl say the best way to stop ur addiction is to keep urself busy, keep urself occupied with things u love doing...
I seriously can't be left alone, every night, i'm tubing till i fall asleep beside my laptop, every day, i try to find things to keep me occupied, even though sometimes i'm doing dumb things, but still, it keeps me occupied...
And everynight, if i fall asleep thinking of things i'm not supposed to think about, or just lie there thinking such thoughts, i immediately open my eyes and remind myself about my simple promise...
KARL MICHAEL LIM WOULD STAND UP AND WALK ON HIS OWN 2 FEET BEFORE APR 16... Mark my words...
Still, the penknife is my best friend now, but no, i have not used it as of yet...
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